Welcome little one

Dear Baby,
Today was the day I've been waiting nearly a year for. We finally finally had a yes on our pregnancy test. I'm sorry to say that this last year of trying for you, and wanting you so bad, and not getting what I want really changed me. I wavered in my faith and found pity for myself when I didn't deserve it. Your dad however came through stronger than ever. He was the rock of reason that always told me that everything would be okay. He had a chance to attend the Portland Temple in August and he said he just felt great peace over our situation. I am one who needs to know the exact details of every situation, and peace over come what may just wasn't enough for me. It was finally the closing sentence in the conference talk by President Monson that changed my heart. He said "Brothers and sisters, my sincere prayer is that we may adapt to the changes in our lives, that we may realize what is most important, that we may express our gratitude always and thus find joy in the journey. In the name of Jesus Christ, amen." I learned to be thankful for that which I did have. Although I didn't have you I had my sweetest little Emma and your dad who is my very best friend. I changed my whole outlook on life and learned to become grateful for this time that we had to fight to get you. It was 17 days later that I learned that I was pregnant, and I'm so thankful that I had a chance to change my heart before I received the good news.
So I took a pregnancy test in the morning, but I couldn't bare to see the results. If it said "negative" I would just be too sad to go on with my day. So I stuffed the test in the back of my drawer and I met Annie to go walking at the Parkway with Emma. After lunch I came home with Emma and my hand was shaking as I pulled the test out to read the results. I screamed, literally screamed with joy when I saw the positive sign. Emma was so cute to get in on the excitement with me and I'm so glad to have shared that moment with her. Later I made a nice dinner and set the video camera up to show your dad the results. He was just as relieved as I was, except he gets the pride in knowing he never lost his faith. That is a lesson I will always remember him for. We're so glad you're here!!